Life is just a smidge better than yesterday...well, not a smidge better, but just brighter all the way around.I just got back from the interest meeting for the Christian Sorority/Fraternity that I mentioned before.  I really feel like I belong there, despite my stupid wrong-doings.  The people are so nice and they are just like me.  I felt kind of bad because of the things that happened this weekend...like drinking (I am underage), I didn't get drunk and lose my panties anywhere, I just had a few drinks.  That's all.  But once I sat down and met the people, I realized that that was what I have always prayed for.  I have always wanted a to have a group of Christian friends that I could relate to, (not the uppity "I think I am better than you" type).  I think I have found my place, but I have to make sure that this is exactly for me.  I just want to be happy.  And I think this will help alot.

This morning I had a 8 o'clock College Algebra class that I skipped.  I am still sick and my body was tired from all of the crying I did the night before.  So I happily stayed in bed.  Then I got up to go to my Political Science class.  I was running a little bit late, but still on time.  I got there and I kept feeling like we were going to get a POP QUIZ!!!  OH LORD!! And yes, we got one.  And guess what...I ACED it!!  I hadn't read the chapter or anything...can you believe it!?!?!  I surely can't.  I was in AWEW and freakin' AMAZEMENT!!  There was definately a "HIGHER POWER" on my side.  Dang, I'm BLESSED!!  So I felt really good, until I was brought back into the realization that I was in fact still sick.  And the next thing you know, I'm hacking my brains out! (Coughing)  I started getting hot and I was disturbing everyone that was attempting to pay attention to the lecture.  I could hardly pay attention, I was getting ready to just walk out of class, but I needed to take the notes...I hate getting other peoples notes because they don't do theirs like mine.  So I spent most of the class hacking like an IDIOT!  But I couldn't be too upset, cuz I got m first freakin' A in college!!! (I need to throw a party!)

Anyways, so my good friend Naya and I go get something to eat and then we head back to my place.  We watched a little tv and then she had to leave...she had another class to attend...I on the other hand was done for the day.  So I was sitting at my computer, just surfing the web, when I get a phone call.  This was at around 1236 pm, so I'm thinking its my mom or something, but I was decieved...it was...DRUM ROLL PLEASE.....dun dun dun dun dun dun...my BABY J!!!!

I was so darn happy, I was grinning so HARD!!  (But we won't tell him that...shhhh)  So yea, he told me he was thinking about me, he said that he was thinking about me so hard that he had to call me from right where he was, which happened to be his MATH CLASS!!  I was in such shock...he called me in the middle of his math class, I felt all special.  We talked about my constant absence in my very own math class, he warned me about that and then we talked about school.  Not too much later were we interupted by his math teacher's sudden urge to pass out papers, starting with the back of the class...which was where my baby was sitting...of course.

I was happy to hear from him.  His phone call and everything else made today a really beautiful day.  Not just because he called, but because everything went so smoothly. 

And guess what...dun dun dun...it can only get better.  Tomorrow has so much promise.  I believe I can get better.  Take the good with the bad, seek motivation to be able to withstand the bad times, and then you can face anything.  God is good.  He has placed so many good people in my life...I just hope I am one of those good people for someone else.

Tomorrow will be AWESOME!  I can feel it.  Even if I get bad news or something, I'm getting stronger, and I can handle it...even if it does mean crying...(OMG!!! What am I saying??? hahaha)

Seriously though, everything will be alright.  And soon enough, I will find out what true happiness is really like.

Be Good ALL.  Live life to the fullest.

And don't be afraid to cry.